Hello my wonderful, beautiful friends! You are loved and cherished and not one of you better forget it! I know I am getting at this really late but today has been one of really highs and really lows. As ya’ll know I spent a long night in the hospital. But let me give a big shout out to the most amazing DR. I was able to be seen by in the Emergency Department, STEVEN J TANKSLEY (at least that’s what was on my after visit summary so I hope its him). He was ex army and had a nice conversation with James, but also was very calm and gentle to me while I was wrapped in fear. He reassured me that with my family history my primary care was going in the right directions with the test and to just hang in there and keep my appointments. Then what he said next hit me like a ton of bricks. ” you need to know you are not doing this alone, we are here for you. If you need anything or if anything different comes up , please come back in”. I have never felt so “heard” at the DR’s and so taken care of. I had not only a great MD I had a great team of nurses looking after me. I wish I could tell them all thank you , but for the most part I couldn’t get their names because I was in a C-collar and freaking out. So if any of my sweet followers know anyone working the ED unit last night at Peace Health of Longview pass along that the shower fall girl says thank you from the bottom of my heart. But for now this is my view!
Now the importance of 6:47 am . Well, after setting my alarm for 3 am Friday to be able to talk to a friend, which didn’t happen anyways, I had a VERY stressful day with people who like to break others down and play pass the blame game. Then add the “how low of a blow can I punch” text message, at the fall around 9:30 pm, I finally hit the sack just shy of being up 24 hours. Just a few short hours later I was receiving a call from a cold hearted snake. Someone I had trusted more than anyone ever to never hurt me called just to say basically “you are nothing and never contact me again”. It was so cold it was almost not believable but hey it is what it is right? As we all know as humans we can’t make people feel anything , their feelings are their own. We also can’t force people to stay. Luckily I was able to roll over and my sleepy hubby was able to wrap his arms around me and try and squeeze the pain and hurt away. That is for a total of 30 seconds before we both overheated in the hot dang room.
As I laid there praying for sleep to take me I realized that I have gave said Iceking too much space in my head and life before it was warranted. The best advice I can give is , it is wonderful when someone wants to be in your life, but please don’t let them rent too much space in your head and heart, because if they leave they may leave a mess like some renters do, and you my dear will have to clean it all up before the next renter comes along. Many times the renter of the space in your heart and head doesn’t pay rent. Rent can be many things, but in this case money isn’t one of them. Time, love, respect and a multitude of other things. If the renter isn’t paying then it is time to evict and you are left with another mess to clean up and no one is getting there security deposit back, there are no winners to this game. Ok enough sad now on to some happy……
We have been doing some fun crafts trying to make a little money to cover cost such as gas, kids clothes, school supplies, food, you know just stuff. Some of the things we are doing is upcycling vinyl records and their covers. Well those not in the area , our town has an amazing store on the old main street called Classic’s and Oddities ( https://www.facebook.com/ClassicsandOddities/ ). They specialize in all things retro! Games and systems, records, cassettes even some toys. There is just too much to list. If you are ever in Longview WA, you have to check them out because they are the real deal! Also if your on Commerce AVE to check out classics , you have to also check out The Original Kristi’s Boutique Bakery (https://www.facebook.com/kristis.custom.cakes.longview/ )
Back to the story, today he posted that he had a ton of albums that he needed to get rid of. A friend of mine saw it and tagged me in the post. Sure enough he private messaged me and told me to come get them, that he couldn’t find my past message to know how to get a hold of me. This is truly a town where small business takes care of small business. I have to share a snapshot of what our world looks like right now before we get to work.
Yeah, that is a lot of records but in our eyes its also a road to making some money for the things our babies need. With all this health stuff, looking for work right now is off , at least until I get off the crutches. With the treasures we got today, we have some great work ahead of us!!
As always thank you for taking the time to listen and to share in my happiness and pain. Life isn’t always pretty but its what you make of it after a storm that counts
Love and light and blessed be.